Wanna One World Tour in Jakarta

Hi finally Im back (again)! I dont know how many times I have gone on hiatus, but the urge to write again suddenly comes back. This time I will share my story about my experience in watching concert in Indonesia for the first time for Wanna One. My first kpop concert was JYJ Asia Tour in Hongkong in 2014, then continued by TVXQ Special Live Tour T1STORY in Bangkok. I always like going to kpop concerts for my bias because I can meet and watch them closely and the thought of being in the same place together really makes me happy. Back to the main story, I started to like Wanna One in January this year right before my final national exam. If you are unfamiliar with kpop, they are trainees coming from Produce 101 season 2. I suggest you to watch the show first to understand how hard they have worked to be able to debut. Im not the type that easily changes my bias from one to another. I've liked TVXQ as five members for 11 years now and Wanna One is the other group that I like right now. After the announcement that they would be holding a world tour, I was so excited that I kept on following the updates on twitter about when and where the world tour will be hold. Jakarta was on the list! I was hesitated for days on whether I should watch in Jakarta or in another country that's still close to Indonesia. It's mostly because I didnt have any experience in going to concerts in Indonesia and I knew how chaos it would be watching from previous kpop concerts updates. In the end I chose to watch it in Jakarta with my younger sister and we bought the standing section CAT 1 because I wanted to watch as close as possible to the stage but with reasonable price. 

 

15 July 2018: D-day

We arrived quite early around 11am and I went to search for the person who helped me to buy the ticket. It was really crowded at that time; I was surprised because early in the morning I saw people updating in twitter they were already at the venue around 6-7am. After getting my tickets, I went around to buy merchandises and search for freebies. It was so damn hot and humid that I kept on sweating. We entered the venue at 5pm where they did body check. This was where the problems started. It was not that strict; they only checked if we had foods or drinks with us. Swing Ent as Wanna One agency has been really strict with cameras and videos in concerts yet Indonesian promotor only did superficial check? Yes. We were led to a holding area where the section has been separated. I was confused at first because the room was huge and the sign wasnt clear enough and there's no one to ask. People around me confusely queued and we didnt know if we were standing at the right place. The categories were VIP right left, CAT 1 right left, CAT 2 right center left, CAT 3, and CAT 4. The first three sections were free standing and with queue number to enter the venue but in Indonesia, of course, queue number has no use. I was in CAT 1 left and all of us waited for so long to enter the venue. In the end, you know what happened? They told all of us to enter at the same time and of course everybody ran! I didnt know what was in their mind at that time. They didnt think about their own safety. I and my sister stood in the back; it was less crowded and we still could see the stage clearly. The concert started at 7pm and this was when the chaos started. After singing 2-3 songs, the show was resumed. I was confused at first, but then the promotor told us to step back a little bit because the front crowd had been really packed and kept on pushing each other. Being paused for 30 minutes, the concert was resumed again and it ended at 10pm. During the concerts, it wasnt allowed to record or take pics but once again, people started to take out their phones to record. The promotor was unable to control the crowd and it happened. Despite all the dramas, the concert itself was amazing! Wanna One didnt disappoint me at all; they were beyond my expectation. Of course Kang Daniel was really cute and sexy the whole time!!! I sang and danced along throughout the concert lol I had expect myself to lose my voice the next day because of too much screaming (this happened to me twice at JYJ and TVXQ concerts) but thankfully nothing happened. I hope I still can watch their next concert as they are going to disband this year :( Perhaps the final concert in Seoul. Should I go?

 

All I wanna do WANNA ONE!

From one of my favorite fansite Peach UP!

Be aware of depression, the silent killer.

This week has been a tough one for kpop fans, as one of the most popular boybands' main vocalist passed away on Monday. SHINee's Jonghyun was found unconscious in an apartment and later declared death, which believed to have committed suicide by burning coal briquettes. I was so surprised when I saw the news, as I knew SHINee was still active at the moment. SM is known to be one of the big 3 music companies and has many of the most successful groups in kpop history. You named it: TVXQ, Super Junior, SNSD, SHINee, EXO. Who would know one day one of their singers would die in such a young age by commiting suicide? SHINee was the only SM groups with complete original members till now and no legal battle dramas, except for Onew who had a scandal recently. What makes me even more surprised is that I've been watching them since they debutted in 2008 as it's at the same time when TVXQ released their most popular albums Mirotic. It's like watching the babies grew and then boom, something happened. As a kpop fan myself, I can relate how gloomy and sad the fandom is right now. Jonghyun have just had his concert in December 10. Nobody knew that all these times depression has been killing him inside. My thesis for undergraduate degree was about depression; this is why I always have a soft spot for this topic. He left a suicide note and you could see how desperate he was to end his life because he wanted to be free. Depression is a silent killer. You wont know because a depressed person tends to not telling others about what or how they feel. In this case, he has searched for a psychiatrist but it didnt help him either. He chose to end his life. Even until today, I still cant believe that he's gone.

Below is the suicide note Jonghyun left to his friend, Dear Cloud's 9, originally in Korean and has been translated to English as accurately as possible.  

Please dont read this if you are easily triggered.

Source: Koreaboo

I am broken from the inside.  
The depression that slowly gnawed away at me has finally swallowed me whole.  
And I could not defeat it.
I detested myself. 
I grabbed my disjointed memories and yelled at them to pull themselves together but was met with no response.
If I can’t help myself breathe properly it’s better to stop breathing at all.
I asked myself who was responsible for me.
Only I.
I was utterly alone.  
It’s easy to talk about the end.  
It’s hard to actually end.  
I lived until now because of that difficulty.  
I told myself I wanted to run.  
Yes, I wanted to run.  
From myself.  
From you.
I asked who was there. 
It was me. It was me again. And it was me yet again.
I asked why I kept losing my memories. It was because of my personality. I see. So It’s all my fault in the end. I wanted people to notice but no one did. They’ve never even met me so of course they don’t know I exist.
I asked why they live. They just live, just live on.  
If you ask why I die I would answer I am exhausted.  
I have suffered and pondered. I never learned how to turn this exhausting pain into bliss.
Pain is just that, pain.  
They scolded me not to do this.  
Why? Why can’t I even end things the way I want to?
They told me to find out why I hurt.  
I know too well. I hurt because of me. It’s all my fault and all because I’m lacking.  
Doctor, is this what you wanted to hear?  
No. I have done nothing wrong.
When the gentle voice blamed my personality I thought, ‘damn being a doctor is easy.’  
It’s so odd that it hurts so much. People who have it worse than me live fine, people who are weaker than me carry on fine. Maybe that’s not true. There’s no one alive that’s got it worse than me or is weaker than me.
But I should live on anyway.  
I keep asking myself why I should hundreds of times and it’s not for my own good. It’s for yours.  Please don’t say a word if you don’t understand.  
Find out why I’m hurting? I told you why. Is it so wrong to hurt so much because of that, do I need to have a more dramatic reason? A more specific reason?
I told you already. Were you not listening? Things you can overcome don’t scar you for life.  
Clashing with the world was never meant for me.  
The life of fame was never meant for me.  
That’s all the reason why it hurts. Because I’m famous. Why did I choose this. It’s so funny.  
It’s a wonder I lasted so long.
What can I say. Just tell me I’ve done well. That this is good enough. 
That I’ve worked hard. Even if you can’t smile don’t fault me on my way. 
You did well, you worked hard. Goodbye.
— SHINee’s Jonghyun

You did well, Jonghyun. Rest in peace. 

I dont even know!

Well, yesterday my friends were freaked out because they met korean artists at malioboro. Let me tell you, a korean variety show "Barefoot Friends"came to Indonesia, to be specific jogja, and did the shooting here. I didnt even get the news of it because no one was talking about this in the morning. My friends met UEE, Kim Hyun Joong, Kang Ho Dong, Yoon Si Yoon, etc. she said it was really a chaos, people running here and there but majority followed KHJ since he's a popular singer and actor. My friend was so lucky, she saw Yoon Si Yoon, UEE, and KHJ very close. I was sososo jealous, not because I liked them but I like the feeling of freak out when you see an artist and start stalking. I know it sounds weird, but I like it. Of course I do it in a positive way, not hurting or scarying the artist like what most people did last friday on malioboro. Some infos said most of them were afraid because it's kind of "brutal". Please dont do this thing again or else no more artist would love to come to indonesia. I pretty disappointed I didnt know they'd came here and didnt managed to stalk them at malioboro T^T maybe because it's not someone that I really like so I didnt get the news. Hopefully I can stalk them in these few days :D

thankyou message and bonus

first, i want to say thank you to all my friends who's been helping me these day especially in this JYJ's #FromIndonesiaWithTears project either posting on facebook/twitter or spreading it to others. it really means a lot to me (although it sounds exaggerating).
thanks a lot :)

besides i was really happy today because jaejoong (@mjjeje) changed his twitter bio into "JYJ from 東方神起". as a cassie who always keep the faith, i was extremely happy.

credit : twitter

u-kiss in brastagi part 2 (photos)

all of these were the photos i took during concert. sorry for the poor quality.

u-kiss in brastagi part 1

hello.
i've just come back from brastagi. yesterday i went there in order to watch ukiss showcase in mikie holiday. we went there at 11.30pm after i finished my tuition. my friend has told me that there was a long traffic between medan-brastagi and i thought i was just a usual traffic jam. but when i was at padang bulan, the traffic was so long and it hasnt until the halfway to brastagi. when we were just one third of the way to brastagi it has been 1pm! can you imagine? it meant i need 6 hours to arrive in brastagi and that was 5pm! the showcase starts at 5pm man!! so does it mean i dont need to watch the concert? i was very afraid at that time because the traffice was so long and our car just moved a little. stevanie also bbm-ed me asking where i was and she has the same situation with me! her father were pessimist that we could arrive on time, and so do my father. but luckily after we passed sembahe which was causing traffic, all of the way there's no traffic. we arrived in brastagi at 4pm and we went to eat as soon as possible. finished eating we directly went to mikie as it was almost 5pm.

in next post i'll post some of the photos i took during the concert.

ticket ticket ticket

i've got the ticket!! yes the ticket of u-kiss mini concert in mikie holiday, brastagi. i was so happy that my mom allowed me to watch them. at first i wasn not sure whether my mom would allow me. i immediately asked my mom as soon as i knew this concert new, and she allowed me. luckily the ticket price were not so expensive compared to other artists ticket price. it's on 5 march and it's national holiday!! and there's no exam at that time wohoooo!! actually i want to ask my cousin to accompany me watching them, but at that time he has also bought jay chou's ticket concert in malaysia. i thought im gonna watch them by myself and what surprised me was stevanie's seat was right beside me!! im gonna watch the concert with her and her sister!!

A-ing 아잉♡

im in love with this song! i just downloaded it today and quickly i've fallen in love with it. actually i myself prefer orange caramel to SNSD. they have cute image and they are unique. try to download their new song, A-ing 아잉♡

found you

this is the page of TOHOSHINKI EXPO 2010!
TOHOSHINKI EXPO 2010
how i wish i were in japan now!

interview!

i was interviewed today!
but for our announcement board material.
the topic is kpop, and my friend chose me as the informant!
thanks to hartaty *hugs*
at first i was surprised when somebody's looking for me.
i thought i made something wrong.
then he confirmed that he was told to interview me.
at last i know that hartaty nominated me to be interviewed.
i answer as good as i can.
who's the best kpop singer? TVXQ.

and tomorrow is our team's turn for the drama.
im anxious and curious how it will be.
wish my team tons of luck for the drama!

success of mirotic day!

yesterday trending was a success!
i dont know the estimate time of how long we've been trending, but im sure it's more than 2 hours!
we started at 6pm and in 32 minutes we've spotted no.1!
it's cassies strength.
i was amazed with those, and keep trending for a long time.
im very happy with that.
it means cassies are always keeping their faith.
no matter what happens, always keep the faith!

and these are what i've captured yesterday

#miroticday grabbed the first only in 32 minutes! awesome!
(im using red to emphasize cassiopeia's color)

cassies and TVXQ were getting on the spot too!
cassie=TVXQ, TVXQ=cassie!

mirotic day

today is mirotic day!
2 years ago, today and this month, they launched their new album after 1 year and 7 months hiatus.
i was very happy that time, i still remembered it.
and the craziest thing was i bought their album without my mom's permission.
she got mad after knowing it, but nothing can be done.
i've bought it and I WAS VERY HAPPY.
that what had happened to them now is not what i want, but i hope they'll be together soon.
less than 3 months they will celebrate their 7th year anniversary.
i hope i can see them launching another new album again, and this lawsuit gonna end soon.
always keep the faith.

for bonus, i'll give you mirotic mv to complete my mirotic day.
watch it!




note:
we'll be trending #miroticday in twitter in 6pm KST which means 4pm in indonesia.
it's in 30 minutes from now.
spread the word cassies!

holyday, byebye

holiday gonna end soon.
when it's holiday, i got bored at home and hoping to go to school.
when holiday's gonna end, im hoping for another holiday extension.
confusing enough.
i love to go to school, meet my friends, and do other things, excluding exams.
practical exams are okay, but no to teoritical exams.
we are going to have another EXAMS on october, im not sure about the date.
i hope we get holiday again before exams, since many dramas and movies have been waiting in the list.
1. Sungkyunkwan Scandal
2. My Girlfriend is A Gumiho
3. Baker King Kim Tak Goo
4. Cyrano Dating Agency
5. Playful Kiss

kpop's loved.

since nothing to do, i'll recommend you kpop songs which i loved now and in the past.
maybe you can download and try to listen it.
1. SHINee - Lucifer
2. TVXQ - "O" Jeong.Ban.Hap
3. TVXQ - Rising Sun
4. SHINee - Noona Neomu Yeppeo
5. Orange Caramel - Magic Girl
6. SUper Junior - Bonamana
7. BoA - Hurricane Venus
8. T-ara ft. Supernova - Time To Love
9. TVXQ - Purple Line
10. CN Blue - Im a Loner
11. SS501 - Love Ya
12. Miss A - Bad girl Good Girl
13. Girls Generation - Run Devil Run
14. MBLAQ - Y
15. U-Kiss - 만만하니
16. Wonder Girls - Nobody
17. Wonder Girls - 2 Different Tears
18. After School - Because Of You
19. T-ara - I Go Crazy Because Of You
20. TVXQ - Crazy Love
i think it's enough for now.
this just a few list of my recommended songs.
it's too many to be mentioned here.
you can try to listen and you decide whether you'll become a kpop lovers like me.